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11/8/98 More About That Mirror Psalm 139:13-18

11/8/98 More About That Mirror

For a number of weeks now
      we have been talking about how
            the only way we can ever hope to gain
                  an accurate knowledge of ourselves
                        is through the knowledge of Christ.

It's not all that complicated -
      the more we get to know Him correctly
            the more we get to know ourselves correctly.

Our Lord provides us with the perfect mirror
       through which we can see ourselves correctly.

Without that mirror
      we will attempt to discover who we are
            through the only other resource available to us -
      the people around us.

We will begin each day
      asking them who we are
            and why or if we have value.

And then,
      depending upon how they respond to us,
            and how we choose to process that response,
      we will fall into one of two possible traps:

1. Either we will think two highly of ourselves,
      seeing ourselves as superior in some way to those around us,
      because we did a tiny bit better on an IQ test,
      or because we have decided our body is shaped a little bit better then others,
            or because we have accumulated
                  a little bit larger pile of junk then they have,

2. or we will think too little of ourselves,
      because our spirit has been crushed by the lies of others,
            or because we've allowed our sins
                  or our failures to become the dominant factors in our self-perception,
                        or because we have chosen to measure ourselves
      by any of a thousand different cultural measures of success,
            or value,
                  or beauty,
                        or significance.
But when our Lord is successful
      in taking our eyes off ourselves
            with all the flaws and failures we may see there,
      and taking our eyes off those around us
            and all the distorted and confused input we receive from them,
      and when He is able
            to give us ears to hear Him,
in other words,
      when we have finally asked our Creator who we are,
      we will say about ourselves
            the same thing David said about himself in Psalm 139:

Ps. 139:13 ¶ For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother's womb.
Ps. 139:14 I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well.
Ps. 139:15 My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth;
Ps. 139:16 Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Your book were all written The days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them.
Ps. 139:17 ¶ How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
Ps. 139:18 If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand. When I awake, I am still with You.

I quoted a few phrases from that passage
      about a month ago,
            but we didn't spend much time on it.

The content of those 6 verses
      is truly remarkable.

They describe what we see
      and how we respond
            when we see ourselves
                  in the mirror of our Lord.

In other words,
      when our Lord is finally able
            to offer us a clear, accurate reflection of ourselves,
when we are no longer guessing
      at who we are,
            or where or if we fit in God's total creative work,
      when we see ourselves
            through God's eyes
                  these verses tell us how we will respond.

And the first response we see
       is a heart of gratitude
            for our uniqueness
                  in God's creative work.

Ps. 139:13 ¶ For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother's womb.
Ps. 139:14 I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well.

And the first thing I want to point out about this
      is that I'm not saying
            this is something we SHOULD DO,
I'm saying this is something we WILL DO
      when we see ourselves correctly.

David isn't simply choosing to thank God for who he is,
      even though he doesn't really feel it.

Sometimes we need to do that.
      Sometimes we need to choose to thank and praise our God
            even though our emotions are in anguish.

But that's not what's going on here.

David affirms God as his Creator and Designer.
      It was God who chose who David would be
            in every aspect of his personhood.

But he doesn't stop there.
      After affirming that truth,
            David bursts out with an explosion of gratitude because he was fearfully and wonderfully designed.

And it is important for us to recognize
      that David's comments here
            are intensely personal.
He is not simply talking about the generic man.

He is not making a philosophical comment
      about the wondrous design of the human body.

He was not writing the introduction
      to a Moody Science film.

He was talking about himself personally.
      He was talking about God's decision
            to bring David into existence.
And, as he looks at himself
      through the eye of His Creator
            He says, Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well.

And in context,
      the "works" he's referring to
            are God's creative works
                  in the design and creation of himself.

Now, I said a few minutes ago
      that this explosion of gratitude
            was not something David choose
                  even though he didn't really feel it,
it was something that...well, in his own words,
my soul knows ... very well.

And my point here is simply this:
We will know we are seeing ourselves correctly
      when we discover that same response within ourselves.

Maybe it would help if I stated it backwards:
      If we do not find that same kind of response within ourselves
            when we look at God's creative work of us,
                  it simply means that we have not yet
                        seen ourselves correctly.

When we look at our God
      and in the reflection of His Glory
            see an accurate image of ourselves,
                  we will say with David,
"Lord, thank you for creating me,
      You have done very well indeed."

And we are not talking about an egotistical arrogance here.
      This is not David saying,
"See what I have done!
      See how much I have!
            Aren't I a great man!"

This is not David comparing himself
      to the rest of the world
            and then proclaiming, "I WIN!"

This is David standing in the presence of God,
      looking at God's design of David,
            and saying, "Thank you Lord,
                  for the person you designed me to be!

Let me offer it to you in a single phrase:
If you do not like yourself,
      then you have not yet seen yourself
            through the eyes of God.

When we see ourselves
      through the eyes of our Lord
            our first response will be a soul
                  that overflows with gratitude.

2. But David doesn't stop there.
He goes on to say,
Ps. 139:15 My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth;
Ps. 139:16 Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Your book were all written The days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them.

And in those two verses
      David affirms God's intimate involvement and careful plan and purpose for David
            from the day of his conception
                  until the day of His death.
...in Your book were all written
The days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them
.
Here we all are,
      inching our way through life,
            agonizing over the past,
                  afraid of the future.
It's our nature...our frail, limited human nature.
We cannot change the past,
      we cannot control the future.
We find ourselves caught between the two
      every day of our lives.
And we worry.
      And we try to put together
            all our little schemes
                  to make life turn out the way we think it should.

But here in this Psalm,
      speaking as only a child of God can speak,
            David affirms for us the truth.
Oh Lord my God,
      You have done well in Your creation of me,
            and You have done well
                  in Your purpose and plan for my life.
I can see only a little bit of it
      as I look back.
I can see none of it
      as I look forward.
But I know enough about You to know
      that my fear has no basis in truth.
You have held my life in your hands
      from the day of my conception
            until the day of my death,
and both those days
      were ordained by You
            before I ever existed.

I hope you see what David is saying.
      When we see ourselves correctly
            in the light of our Creator,
we will find within ourselves
      both a heart of gratitude
            for His design of us,
and a confidence in our Creator's
      life plan and purpose for us.

But there's more.

Ps. 139:17 ¶ How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
Ps. 139:18 If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand.

The word translated "to" in that first phrase
      actually means "concerning".
David is saying,
Ps. 139:17 ¶ How precious also are Your thoughts concerning me, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
Ps. 139:18 If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand. When I awake, I am still with You.

Of all the passages in Scripture
      that I have ever wrestled with,
            those two verses continue to be
                  among the most amazing I have ever found.

God thinks about me.
      
Have you ever had a friend say to you,
      "You know, I was thinking about you just this morning..."?

How did that statement make you feel?
Felt good, huh?
      Felt good to know
            that someone you like
                  was thinking about you.

God thinks about you.
      Not just on the day of your birth,
            and the day of your death.
But His thoughts concerning you
      are vast beyond number.

If you tried to count them
      they would outnumber the sand.

You know what that says, of course.
That says you have value to Him
      beyond anything you could ever even begin to imagine.

We've seen those pictures
      of huge crowds of people -
maybe all crowded into a massive stadium,
      maybe packed like little bugs
            into the streets of some huge city.

So many people.
      Why would God care about you?
Why would He even notice?

And yet He does.
      Not only does He notice,
            but His mind is fixed continually upon you.

Because He cares for you
      ...He loves you
            ...He thinks about you.

When we see ourselves correctly
      reflected in our Lord
            1. we will overflow with gratitude,
                  2. we will recognize His life plan and purpose for us,
                        and 3. we will discover our incredible value to Him.

And there is one more thing as well.
      It is found in that final phrase
            in verse 18:
When I awake, I am still with You.

I think I may be able to illustrate
      what I see happening in that phrase best by sharing with you
            an e-mail my daughter received from the tooth fairy a few weeks ago.

Most of you know
      my daughter, Joni, is currently in college
            at Trinity Western University
                  in Langley, B.C.

When she was a little girl in pig tails,
      back in those few years
            when her baby teeth were falling out
                  and she was putting them under her pillow for the tooth fairy,
      after the tooth fairy had taken one of her teeth
            she decided she wanted it back.

So she took the money she had gotten for her tooth,
      and then wrote a note to the tooth fairy asking if she could buy her tooth back,
            and then she put both the note
                  and the money under her pillow.

The tooth fairy returned that night
      and returned her tooth,
            and let her keep the money as well.

But then Joni got the exciting idea
      of writing to the tooth fairy every night.

She adopted the tooth fairy as her pen-pal.

Each night she put a letter to the tooth fairy under her pillow,
      and each morning she looked for the fairy's response.

This went on for several days,
      until the tooth fairy got so far behind
            in collecting other children's teeth
                  that the correspondence had to stop.

A little over a month ago
      I received a gift from my daughter.

It is a tiny wood canister
      with the label "Tooth Fairy" on the front.

Inside was this note:
"Dear Tooth Fairy,
I haven't lost a tooth for a bit, but I thought I'd say 'Hi'. I'm giving you this little monogrammed box as a token of my appreciation for all your years of worthy service. I'm hoping you'll visit college campuses. I love you. Joni Sue."

In response to that notice
      Joni received the following e-mail from the tooth fairy:

Dear Joni,

Thank you so very much for the wonderful wood tooth container. I am
using it on my travels each night now to put children's teeth in as I
collect them. It makes it so much easier to keep track of them,
especially the very small ones.

I have missed my visits to you very much, though I must confess sometimes I slip by and take a peak at you when you're sleeping and give you a little kiss on the forehead even though I know you no longer have any teeth for me. I have such fond memories of our correspondence years ago. You asked if I ever visit college campuses. Yes, I do sometimes
visit college students when they have a tooth that is knocked out or pulled out and they remember to put it under their pillow. That doesn't happen very often, though. When you had your wisdom teeth pulled I stopped by and checked to see if you might have saved them for me, but I guess the dentist must have beat me to them. I must be honest, Joni - I
have gotten into the habit of stopping by your room quite often at nights recently. On nights that are not extremely busy I will sometimes sit with you for several hours. I must say I do love the stars you have put up on your ceiling. They are so pretty and they give me just enough light so that I don't bump into things and wake you up.
I love you very much, my little one, and treasure my friendship with you more than you could ever imagine.

With much love,
The Tooth Fairy

I share that with you
      because it helps me to understand that last phrase in Psalm 139:18
...When I awake, I am still with You.

You see,
      as much as the Tooth Fairy would like to,
      he cannot spend all night,
            every night sitting in my daughter's dorm room as she sleeps.

But our Lord can...and does.

In that one phrase David is talking about
      the true security we discover
            when we see ourselves correctly
                  through our relationship with God.

David is saying,
      "Every night I close my eyes and in my mind      
            I leave You
                  and this world
                        and all its pain and confusion for a few hours,
                              and I sleep.

But YOU do not leave me.
      You're still there.
            You still care.
                  and When I awake, I am still with You.

And there is no place else
      I ever want to be.